torn
Wednesday, Dec. 17, 2003, 11:04 am
good morning!!!
today has started out beautifully!
lol ok no really. this morning was a great morning. jeremy came over around 8 and just crawled into bed with me and it was the greatest thing ever. its so hard to go back and sleep in that bed once hes not there...it feels so big...so lonely. but yes...this morning was fantastic. we got up around 10:30 cause he had to go to ms. kliers to work on her comp. so now im up and avoiding all my errands of the day. lol
ive gotta go 2 connies and get my paycheck along with my check from my dad and then go 2 the bank and deposit em all. then im gonna take my sister lunch @ skool (aaawww lol) and then i think were all gonna go shopping for a gift for the koolest teacher alive...mrs. moore. i got a 98 on my history final!!!! if that doesnt kick ass then i dunno what does. woo hoo!
all i hafta worry bout now is the phyics final. but i heard its easy...hopefully.
la de da. i like not having school. :-)
ive got a few things on my mind.
but i dunno if they should be voiced.
weird dreams.
you can never control the way you feel.
but of course u cant control the way other people feel either.
its one of those things where u just wanna let it all out...but admittance to it wont deliver any good outcomes.
some secrets are hard to keep.
you ever think about that?
how hard it can be to keep ur own secret inside? i mean other peoples its an honor thing and ud never spill their secrets.
but your own...thats a hard thing to hold on to. at least some of them.
you think it could ever happen? does it even exist?
these questions i hold unanswered...
i just wish this would go away.
what am i supposed to do?!?! i wish i could just come out with it all...agh. its so aggravating. i wouldnt even know how to present this to anyone...let alone make something positive come out of it. hoepfully these feelings will just...dissapear.
ok im off to get ready. lol sorry about the confusion. dont worry about it...just take it as something to think about for yourself.
have a nice wednesday...:-)
i was trying to find a new template last night...one that truly expresses the state im in right now...but i couldnt find any. if u know of any good free template sights...lemme know.
bye
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