no reservations
Monday, Jan. 26, 2004, 3:30 pm
ah monday.
it wasnt too bad besides stoner springin a test on us for tomorrow.
sometimes i really hate that woman.
besides that it was pretty good.
i know i havent updated 'for real' in awhile.
copying and pasting lyrics and such is so much easier though :-)
so lets see...friday i had choir practice. not excited about my dance partner for pop show. after...kristin, dan, sally, matt, jonathan, and i went to the basketball game for like the last quarter...and the we headed over to the soccer game for a lil while.
then i went to work :-(. that sucked. i got out around 11 and went to my dads house cause he called and said he needed help with something. help my ass. im not gonna go into it...but yeah if u know about it u understand.
so yeah after that fiasco i went to kristin lontocs house for a lil while and chilled w. kevin, kristin, kristin, thomas, and matt j until like...12. then i went home and had a good long talk w. my mama about everything thats going on.
i love my mama.
saturday i woke up and went to the grocery store w. my mama for the weeks fixin's. then we came home and i showered and such and then me, my mama, my sister, and her friend went to memorial city mall. it was fun shopping w. just my mama since my sister was occupied. i got a pair of pants and a shirt...and that makes me happy inside.
after the mall i went to matt j's house and met up w. him, matt, dan, kristin, kristin, jared, and ben. kevin and thomas came later. we watched people play ping pong and matts mama made us spaghetti. aw shes really nice.
after a lil while matt, dan, and kristin lontoc left. so the rest of us watched family guy...eh...for awhile and then kristin landua took home ben and jared. more family guy...eh...and then the rest of us went home. unfortunately...it was pouring rain outside. it was scary to drive in. but everyone got home ok and thats good.
sunday...didnt do much except went to barbaras...worked on physics...did the project prom meeting thing...and then worked on physics some more.
its really not shaping up too well. :-/
my dad actually called last night and tried to apologize. again...if u know whats goin on this is a pretty big deal. i tried to ignore his calls all day but then he called the house and i couldnt avoid it. he said he couldnt apologize if i didnt talk to him...and i said that not only did i have no desire to talk to him...im nowhere near ready to accept any apology from him. so he got all defensive again and that just proves every point...so yeah. yay for my dad.
today was kinda sad...but im trying not to think about it.
i love you kristin lontoc!!!
my mama made banana cookies this weekend and they are oh so good. i am thrilled.
i hate being so unsure. especially about other people. i like to know where i stand w. my friends and such. its so...unstable. and i dont like that.
have you ever been really unsure about something...like about how u feel? and although ur pretty sure...ur not totally sure...and theres not really a way to test those feelings cause u cant control them and it doesnt involve just you.
i hate people who cant admit feeling something to themselves just cause they dont want it to be there or arent sure of it or are scared of it.
reservation and fear should never control your life or your desires.
especially right now...i mean...isnt this only high school? life has barely begun. shouldnt we try everything? just let things happen? want things to happen? try something new...
see i think so too. im glad you agree lol.
dont be so reserved.
or scared.
or whatever is holding you back...dont let it.
...i wonder if anyone reads this anymore...?...
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