three twenty six
Friday, Mar. 19, 2004, 1:10 pm
im reaching a breaking point i couldve never imagined would exist until now.
i cant believe its been a year. thats really hard to grasp.
i have no idea how i feel anymore.
actually...thats a lie. i know how i feel. i just dont...get it. i dont know what to do with it...what to make from it. i dont know what it means. is it possible to go back to something like that? to go back to it and it be good? i want to think yeah...it is. but a part of me says no. there are things that would have to change...things that would have to be different before anything could be good like before.
im so confused right now as to what i want. nothing...makes sense to me.
and to think that i really shouldnt even be worrying about that right now. thats nothing compared to the big picture.
but i cant make myself focus on the big picture. its too surreal.
i hate people that judge before they make an effort to understand. agh and i hate even more people that think they understand.
i hate doctors.
i dont really know why im updating. im not in the mood to @ all.
but i guess theres no where else to put my thoughts.
yeah...screw you.
ok. completely ignore this entry.
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