then i saw her face
Friday, Jun. 04, 2004, 9:29 pm
SATs tomorrow morning.
i feel like i should be a bit more worried than i am...but i guess i was content enough with my scores from last time that i dont really need to worry. i dunno.
itd be really cool to break 1400 though.
i like matt bryan for asking me an honest question openly...but still remaining polite enough about it. thanks for giving a shit matt. lol.
its interesting...i dont really do anything all day...yet im tired. i guess washing the car today was a bit much for my "recuperating" body. lol.
hopefully the summer will pick up. i mean...of course when i can drive...that should help. but there really hasnt been much to do regardless of that fact. @ least theres galveston to look forward to if nothing else.
quiznos for dinner. that was good. :-)
its so hard to stand your ground when youre shaking. when all you wanna do is break down and say its ok...fall to your knees because youd rather be in a crappy situation than be without them all together...but it gets to a point where you hafta remember that you're worth something too...even if no one else thinks so.
i cant allow myself to lower my standards...especially since he created them.
*it seems the more i gave
the less i got
what's the use in trying
all you get is pain
when i wanted sunshine i got rain*
i want to be a believer...make me a believer.
o yeah. washed my truck today (i know i already mentioned that)...but now its going to rain. woo freakin hoo.
reminiscing is sometimes...dangerous...well not dangerous...just hard to do. bittersweet memories. sometimes you dont realize how much you miss somethings until you actually let yourself sit down and think about them. or some people. ive known some really fantastic people...really awesome friends. i guess you gotta be thankful for having the chance to experience them. and even if a lot of it seemed crappy at the time...i wouldnt trade it for anything. sometimes when you look back...thats when you realize how much you overlooked...how great it actually was. but of course...being in the moment of it never gives a subjective viewpoint. man...it seems like an eternity ago.
ok. i guess on that note i will go. not much else to say really. i hope everyone had a great friday. if ur taking em tomorrow...good luck on the SATs. :-)
But there was once you said you hated my suffering
And you understood and you'd take care of me.
You would always be there,
Well, where are you now?
Lyrics from Savage Garden's Crash and Burn and are copyrighted to Savage Garden