i need an answer
May 19, 2002, 4:11 pm
no...i havent died...ive just been grounded. but its all ova now and im back and im better than ever! lol not really but yeah.
last nite was chris's play thing. i really wanted 2 go. but his mama called me @ like 5 sumthin sayin it wus @ 7...and i didnt have a ride there or nething. and i feel bad cuz i really miss him and i really wanted 2 c him. well i hope he did well.
although i didnt get 2 go to chris's play...i (guiltily) had fun. well...lemme start @ the very beginning. friday nite i went 2 band banquet (even though im not in band...) w/ jared. u all know about my exclamation of not likin him nemore...so its extremely ironic that he asked me. i like him 4 2 years...finally get over it...and then 2 weeks later he asks me 2 banquet. so i dunno wut 2 think. but yeah banquet wus fun. i danced and flirted...but i wus still so confused. some ppl say he likes me...and i would like 2 believe that he dus...but i dont wanna start likin him again w/ out the positive assurance that he likes me. blah. but yeah so we went 2 IHOP @ like 1...lol it wus so fun. jared looked so high the whole time cuz he wus so tired. hahaha ok yeah newayz.
yesterday me and kristin went 2 jareds 4 his brothers graduation party thing. we were there from like 4-6:30...it wus ok...kinda boring. i hadnt really known wut 2 expect...i had wanted things 2 b like they had been the nite b4...me and him all flirtin and stuff...but it wusnt really like that...it wus kinda weird. so me and kris left @ 6:30 and went 2 the baseball game...agh it wus suspenseful...and then we went back 2 jareds around 11. it wus better then...things were like they had been friday nite. confusing...yet so fun. blah i dunno. im not sayin i like him...but im not sayin i dont. i wish it wus easier than this. finally the thing ive been wanting...the thing ive been hopin 4 for 2 years is finally comin true...but now im not 2 sure if its wus i really want. bagh. hopefully itll work itself out. i juss wish i knew wut 2 think.
barbara and kyle r so cute 2gether! agh im so happy 4 them. lol and so r alfredo and nicole! and it wusnt akward like i had been afraid of...nope not @ all...juss good ol' fashioned confusin flirting fun. lol agh i need an answer!!!!!
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