happiness overrules jealousy...no competition
June 04, 2002, 12:03 am
agh!!! i dunno where 2 begin. im soooo happy 4 her! her will remain nameles...but agh!!! great things come 2 great ppl!!! itll complicate things a lil bit i no it will...but itll all b good in the end. cuz now she nos and he knows and everybody knows that i wus rite and he really is sincere about her...yeah u probably have no idea wut im talkin bout...but thats ok u dont need 2 no...juss no that im so unbelievabely happy 4 her...nuthin could bring me down.
i wonder wut that feels like. 2 no sum1 cares that much about u that they would go against all fears that they have and all doubts they posess and put themselves out there like that...make them so vulnerable...not knowin wut 2 expect...but no theyr doin it 4 the rite reasons...i wish i could say i knew wut it felt like 2 b cared 4 and wanted like that. but i cant. im glad i have friends...its better than bein completely alone. but my slight and small jealousy dusnt even get close 2 overriding my happiness 4 her.
we saw the sum of all fears 2nite b4 the big life-altering event. it wusnt that great...kinda boring...but it wus fun nun the less. i wus supposed 2 c matt up there but he didnt go. :-(. hes a kool guy...hes a better guy than i thought he was...im glad im gettin 2 no him. i guess 1st impressions arent always correct.
summers actually here. im beginning 2 feel it. and im so excited. lifes goin really good rite now...and i hope it will continue like this. i wonder if horoscopes are ne where near accurate...? i hope they hold sum truth. that would b exhilirating. mayb there is sum hope 4 me out there.
i wish i could bottle the joy and happiness and fulfillment i feel rite now and pass it out 2 every deserving person on this earth...2 get a lil taste of wut i feel rite now. and it would b nice if i could bottle up the lil bit of resentment and jealousy and give it 2 the cold hearted ppl...so they can feel wut they make others feel. sum ppl need a taste of their own medicine.
i hope u realize how great things are when u have them...bcuz it would b a shame 2 lose them. hang on2 ur friends...they mean the most.
i luv u guys...my friends i mean...i miss u chris...but ur still great...im always here 4 yall!!!
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