summer=healing
June 06, 2002, 1:11 am
wow...its late...not really tired though. i got 2 hang out alot 2day w/ kerri. i missed her...even though it hasnt been so long since i last saw her. i dunno...it wus fun just the 2 of us again. i mean now shes w/ stewy so its a lil different...but its still fun. i missed that.
last nite b4 i went 2 kerris i went 2 matt bryans. im not sure y i went...but im glad i did. i wus hesitant 2 go @ 1st...i didnt no if it wus worth it or if i really wanted 2...but yeah im glad i went. i got 2 c a bunch of guys that left falls @ semester and it wus juss fun hangin out and stuff. o they almost threw me in the hottub...lol that wus bad!!! o but it wus fun.
wow guys r annoying. i hate wanting 1...but not havin my choice of 1. i dont want wut i used 2 have...i want sumthin more real...more permanent...i dunno...just not...i dunno hard 2 explain. but a big thank u goes out 2 matt. (lol wow it sounds like im excepting an award or sumthin...i didnt do nething award-worth though) i really appreciate ya listenin 2 me babble and whine and complain...and i dunno...thanx 4 bein a friend. i hope u get wut u want. ill work 4 wut i want. i think ive actually figured it out now...or @ least its comin...not a total decision yet...but ill try. agh. i need 2 stop wantin wut other ppl have. its hard though ya no?...i mean 2 ppl look so happy and complete 2gether...can u blame me 4 wantin it 2? it seems like a reasonable dream 2 me. but ill make it mine...my own...sumday.
the gregorios r gonna b here in 1 week and 1 day!!!! im so excited...the anticipation is extraneous...muahaha.
2day felt like summer. me and kerri walked 2 the pool...and i felt the heat and the sun and the water...and i new it wus here...its finally here. bein away from every1 gives time 4 reconstruction. summer is healing...and longer it lasts the better off well all be. take time 4 urself...u dunno how long itll last.
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