it wus a...day
August 02, 2002, 8:50 pm
wow. 2day wus a...day.
i woke up @ 6:30 after finally falling asleep around 2:30. agh. but yeah so i woke up...and got ready 2 go work w/ kerri. i had 2 wear a monster huge company shirt 2 work it 2day...lol it wus huge!!! yeah not the most comfortable thing in the world. bla but yeah so we didnt have 2 work til like 10:30 ish...so kerri and i went 2 ihop while her mama went 2 work 4 a lil bit. la de da. that wus kool...we got 2 talk alot. then her mama came and got us and we went 2 the Weingarten Realty office...where we met up w/ the ladie we worked with/for 2day. her name wus April...she wus pretty kool. so yeah we headed over 2 The Village Arcade...rite over by Rice University...and started settin up 4 the days work. we were out in the heat from like 10:30 til 4:05...it wus very very hott. almost unbearable. but yeah...thw whole time we were there...ppl would bring us their receipts from shoppin around the village...and if they added up 2 @ least $100...they got a free backpack! lol woo hoo! yeah it wus a piece of crap backpack...like clear plastic. lol i felt bad...lol ppl paid $100 and i gave em crap! hehe o well...they wanted em. so yeah...we did that...it seemed like 4eva...but if wus finally over. lol by then me and kerri were so tired and so disoriented...we looked drunk...but we werent. definitely not. so yeah i finally got home @ like 5:30...and my dad wus there. agh catastrophe!
i wus in such a bad mood. i really needed a shower...i wus tired...hungry...bla bla blah. and i really really really didnt wanna deal w/ him. so by the time all my stuff wus 2gether...i wus crying...and i wus just yellin @ him and tellin him i couldnt deal w/ this shit nemore and i didnt wanna go 2 his house and blah blah blah. it wus bad. so i went 2 his house...but the moment i stepped in his house i new i couldnt stay there. i felt so constricted...confined...trapped...like in a dungeon. the restrictions in that house are endless...and i cant b myself there. i always feel like im bein watched...i cant breathe w/ out doin it wrong. every move i make is either incomplete or wrong. i just couldnt bare 2 stay there. i couldnt breathe...i wus suffocating...the walls seemed 2 b closin in on me. its really bad. so i told him...dad i love u...but i cant stay here. yeah so we talked 4 like an hour...all while im cryin...and he agreed 2 do things and stuff...but ugh it wusnt really an improvement. the worst part wus i saw many things i do in him...and it really scared me. i dont wanna b like him. there are so many things about him i hate...and i dont wanna b like that. i no how he makes ppl feel...wut he dus...i dont wanna do that 2 ppl. i dont wanna b him. that scares me the most. finally after alot of talkin...i wus just like look dad...i love you...but i HAVE to go. and i called travis and got my stuff and left. my dad wus cryin when i walked out. that wus the hardest 2 c. i think i really weirded travis out. i wouldnt have called him...but i didnt no wut else 2 do...cuz last time me and my dad fought my dad took me 2 kristins...and he wus cryin...and leavin that car wus like 1 of the hardest things ive ever dun. i dont wanna abandon him...i really do luv him...but livin w/ him is hell. i mean really. he said its gonna get better...hes gonna try...supposedly. once again ill give him the benefit of the doubt...so im goin back there 2nite. hopefully its gonna b better. o i pray it gets better.
i work again 2morrow...but we dont leave til like 9:30 so its better. after 10 hours in the scorching sun...i get $200...so it aint 2 bad lol. i think were goin shoppin on sunday. i told him i wanna go 2 galveston. hopefully i get 2 go. that would b great. cuz i really really wanna go. its gonna b so fun.
la de da. jerry jeff walker @ the racetrack next friday nite every1!!! my mama already gave me the OK...lol so im goin! everybody go!!! hehe lemme no if ur goin or not...this way i can look 4 u there! ill probably go w/ kristin and grace and allan and william...mayb adam and john...who knows...but ill b meetin kerri and stuart and blake and ashley there...so itll b kool no matter wut. hopefully most of the annoying ppl wont go...since most of em are in2 this country cuz its 'the kool thing 2 do'...but jerry jeff walker aint as big as like pat green and roger creager...so hopefully they wont b there. lol knock on wood *knock knock*. but yeah so thats wuts goin down.
shoppin next weekend also...i get my new camera...hehe and $200 of w/e i want...woo hoo! lol yeah so um. yeah.
eh...choir camp monday and tuesday. woop de doo. and then eagle express is the next monday. agh! and then skool! agh! i dont wanna go. la de da. skool bites.
i hope u all enjoyed that fun lil link i gave ya...if u didnt go 2 it...go back and look @ it. lol ull like it...i promise. and if u dont...o well ur no fun.
ill do an update on my dad situation lata 2nite...after i go back there...wish me luck! luv yall!
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