resolution
August 08, 2002, 1:42 am
so the whole jon thing is bein resolved. he called. and apologized. we talked about y he did...and that he shouldnt have dun it. he really did honestly feel bad. well here...heres the convo summarized...(im tellin brandon this...and thanx 2 him 4 bein helpful and understanding 2nite)...
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: hey
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: thanx 4 talkin 2 me 2nite
GuNNER FIRE: hey
GuNNER FIRE: no prob
GuNNER FIRE: are u done talkin with jon?
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: yeah
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: things are...better
GuNNER FIRE: howd it go?
GuNNER FIRE: good
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: he apologized like a million times and i can tell he truly feels bad about wut he did
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: but i mean the trust factor w/ him now 4 me is still a lil shaky
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: and if he ever lies 2 me again i mean thats it
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: itll b over
GuNNER FIRE: well ive been friends with jon for three years and i know the man is trusworthy, he just doesnt know what to do sometimes and screws up but not intentionally
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: he said hes been confused about the whole rachelle thing
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: yeah
GuNNER FIRE: see its just her that really caught him off guard
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: and i told him although id prefer he pick me...i cant press his decision and i want him 2 do wut he wants 2 do
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: and i told him he could have time ya no...2 work things out
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: but i told him i didnt wanna wait around 4eva
GuNNER FIRE: yea
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: and he said he understood that
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: and were on good terms
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: im just...i dunno
GuNNER FIRE: yea
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: im upset that i have competition w/ rachelle
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: but i told him i prefer the cold, hard, hurtful truth over ne lies next time
GuNNER FIRE: well im glad yall are on good terms now
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: cuz ill get over the truth alot faster than a lie
GuNNER FIRE: well he knows now
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: yeah
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: so well just c how it goes
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: it would b great if it worked out
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: if it dont...sux 4 me but ill survive
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: but yeah thanx 4 listenin 2 me whine
GuNNER FIRE: be careful i dont want you to get hurt
bLoNdEtXhOtTiE: thanx
GuNNER FIRE: no prob
so yeah um thats it in short. allen wus correct in his reason 4 doin it. he just didnt wanna hurt me...but he ended up doin it neway. itll take me a lil while 2 totally recover and forgive him and 2 trust him. but i think itll come. he dusnt no wut he wants 2 do bout me and rachelle. rachelle just kinda appeared likin him again...and hes been confused. so yeah i told him its his choice...but i aint waitin. he asked me 2 not 4get about him...i told him it would b impossible 2 do so. he asked if it would b ok 4 him 2 call me 2morrow...i told him id b upset if he didnt. so were like i said on good terms again. well c wut happens. i dont wanna jinx it...but i probably will neway by thinkin 2 much. but o well. im tired though so im gonna go. thanx 2 every1 who talked 2 me 2nite...i luv u all. i wouldnt survive w/ out u guys...my friends are the best. i dont even deserve them...but im blessed 2 have them.
g'nite all. sweet dreams. ill talk 2 ya 2morrow.
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