agh it bites
August 14, 2002, 3:27 pm
agh! 2day sucked majorly!!!
well lemme start 1st w/ last nite...guess who called...? JON! i wus not expecting 2 hear from him this soon...if ever. but yeah um so they all decided 2 get drunk the other nite...rachelle ended up bein there...and she made out w/ adam. yeah that wus bad. really bad. lol um jon wus pissed...he called rachelle the next day and left a message on her machine sayin he never wanted 2 c her again. so yeah. hes forgive adam...but hes still a lil pissed of about it. but yeah he called me. and he talked. and i wus like "im surprised u called" and he goes "im surprised u took my call. i wus thinkin u werent gonna wanna talk 2 me"...yeah so @ least he tried even though he thought he wus gonna b dissed and dismissed. lol that means sumthin...rite? eh i dunno. but yeah im still gettin over the shock of him calling.
so yeah um 2day sucked major balls. like nobodys in ne of my classes...and like theres nobody in my lunch either. i got outta dance so im gonna take world geo k instead. but um yeah. nobody in my lunch. theres ben...and savannah...but they both dissapeared by lunch time...lol and there jon (hehe that made it a lil better)...cept hes got all of his senior friends. yeah so um i chilled like a kool fool over @ counselors corner 2day gettin my schedule changed w/ jon...and yeah i didnt get 2 eat and i never sat down and it wus crap. total crap. dirty kenny came back 2 visit 2day. he came during lunch. that wus kinda weird. lol i hear from like across the commons "schmermund!!!" and i wus like o god wuts kenny doin here?! haha yeah so um 2day sucked. yes yes it did. and poor kris had a great schedule but its gotta b all rearranged cuz she got put in the wrong softball class. so yeah. by the end of the day we were all pissed off. agh. but yeah jon took us home cuz he drove his mamas car 2 skool 2day. woop de doo. lol mei lee and adam and jessica and everbody kinda cheered me up 2day @ the end though so it wus kool. i dunno. it better b gettin better. cuz rite now skool is total crap. i didnt c kerri or hayley til like after 6th when i wus waitin w/ everybody 2 leave!!! it wus sad. cuz i dont c nebody. i saw kris b4 4th...so that wus kool. the only good class so far is choir...but i think chemistrys gonna b pretty good 2. o yeah and algebra 2 i get 2 b w/ phoebe and whitney so its kinda fun. eh but over all...the day sucked major ass.
i dont wanna go 2 skool 2morrow. i really really dont. i mean its just bad. i wus waitin all day 4 sum1 2 come up 2 me and say "hey sarah its a joke...u dont really have 2 b here...go home...go back 2 bed"...but yeah it never happened. ugh. i just really dont wanna go 2morrow. hopefully itll b better. i pray it will b beter. o god let it please b better.
i dunno wut 2 do about jon. i really dont. lol i hope sumthin good goes. i told both kristin and gracie about him callin and they were both really excited 4 me...so i dunno...mayb thats a good sign...rite?
allen still actin kinda weird around me. like hes still quiet and he keeps sayin i need 2 tell u sumthin...but ah i cant tell u. he dus that all the time. and it drives me nuts...but i no wut it is. i no he wants 2 tell me he likes me. so i try and pull it out of him a lil bit...but then i stop. cuz im afraid fo him telling me. cuz i dunno wut im sposed 2 say once he dus. and i dont wanna hurt him. hes 1 of my best buds. and i luv him so much...but as a brother. and i dont think i could ever like him like that. agh i just wish...i dunno. its not like he can help the way he feels. i no how that feels like...so hes got every rite 2 feel the way he dus. i just wish it wusnt him. i wish it wus like cesar...lol cuz i could tell cesar no...i dont like u. but i couldnt do that 2 allen w/ out cryin and feelin totally bad about it. so mayb itll just blow over. hopefully it just wont come up and hell move on. i hope.
i hope tonys doin ok...i havent talked 2 him in 4eva...but i havent really thought about him either...so i guess thats a good thing. well i hope hes doin ok...and i hope he still kinda thinks about me like i still kinda think about him. la de da. but yeah thats the least of my worries rite now.
skool sux. it really dus. i dont wanna go back. not ever again.
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