its bullshit
Thursday, Jan. 23, 2003, 9:47 pm
today was pretty damn good. til about o say 15 minutes ago.
um yeah so the big superbowl party that everyones goin 2...im not. i was invited to go 2 nicks before xmas break...like a long ass time ago. then i found out the other day @ lunch...which i rarely attend...that now mike is throwing the party. mike...has a guest limit. and supposedly he didnt get 2 finish his list b4 his dad said 'stop. enough'. so i mean im either really low on his list or i wasnt on there @ all. understandably so since i seem 2 b easily forgotten lately. but yeah so um its like ive been formally uninvited. not a great feeling considering that pretty much all of my 'supposed' friends are gonna b there. although the only ppl i really consider to b my 'friends' anymore are jessica, kristin, kerri, and adam. only ppl who actually give a shit if im around or not. o well. i guess thats wut i deserve rite? i dunno. my dream of being wanted is just an empty one. i dont really matter to people nemore.
im glad i have kris and jess and kerri and adam. and im glad i have peter and thomas and travis and brandon and manuel and blake and them. and im talkin 2 chris 2nite 4 the 1st time in a long time. and ive realized how much ive missed him. thats 1 good thing about this moment...ive got chris. thats always been a good thing though.
uh this is all bull shit. no more. o well. ive been totally lonely before. ill do it again. no sweat.
this is all fuckin bullshit.
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