good day...good weekend
Monday, Feb. 16, 2004, 4:31 pm
hello!
good weekend. nothing spectacular. but fun none the less.
lets see...friday night me, matt, kevin, and dan went to eat @ bennigans and then saw along came polly. lol dinner was alot of fun...something that u just had to be there for. lol. ah...horrible waitress. lol anyway. ok so then we saw along came polly...funny and cute. good movie. afterward we didnt really have anything to do...which sucked. kevin and i just drove around for awhile bored out of our minds...and then i went home.
saturday...didnt really do much of anything until saturday night. i went w. jon and 2 of his friends to see 50 first dates. that was funny. lol theres a person in the movie that u never figure out it they are a boy or a girl. lol that was weird. but it was fun and im glad i went. afterward i went to burger king cause i was hungry and then met up w. people @ kevins where we watched about a boy. such a funny movie. "mom looked really great tonight" haha ah its really great. u should see it. then we just sat around and talked and watched tv for awhile and then i went home around 1 something.
la de da...sunday. woke up and went to church. afterward we ate @ sonic where i managed to get syrup all over my pants. yeah...kool feeling. then i went home...cleaned house. got the scratch outta my truck!!! its gone!!! im so thrilled. it makes me very happy inside. lol i love rubbing compound. and im very appreciative of my father who did all the work to get it out. ah that really is awesome. dum de dum. yay :-)
sunday night i went to cicis w. matt and kevin and kristin and sally met us up there...then kevin and i got ice cream from that new cold stone creamery place. then we went to juliannes and i FINALLY gave her her xmas gift. lol even though it was a shin-dig for her birthday. so now all i gotta do is get her bday gift and im all caught up! haha. but yes that was fun. we watched chicago! great movie! i had to be home @ 11 cause my dad was being a jerk so i came home and did nothing. finally went to bed @ like 12 something.
today i woke up and cleaned the bathroom and then came to my mamas house. i missed my dad and i felt bad not going over there so i told myself i would go for only the weekend. and it was an ok weekend dad-wise.
he doesnt understand but he never has and never will. thats really hard to deal w/...really hard to cope with. because i want so much for him to understand...thats y i try so hard to explain it to him. but its a pointless effort everytime. no matter what the issue is.
and there may be people who think that me leaving there is wrong. well thats ok. u obviously dont know enough about the situation or our past or him or me for that matter to really give any credited advice.
but im glad that there are a few people out there who took the time to realize how it really was...people who understand/know what its like. and im glad that they dont criticize me for it. because they get it.
im glad that there are @ least a few people who not only say they care...but actually care. im glad that not everyone fakes sincerity.
o yeah so saturday u all of course remember to be valentines day. well...lol...there surely were flowers on the front step saturday. we didnt find them til like...1 or 2. but after learning friday night that ben was asking around for directions to my house...it was easy to assume whom they were from...even though there wasnt any note or anything attached to them. they were nice though...thanks ben. nice thought.
k so some of u know how me and my mamas skin sometimes gets really itchy. yeah well mines been really extreme lately. almost unbearable. ive actually got a bruise from having to itch in one spot so much. it sucks. and its uncomfortable.
today was 'indulge' myself day. i got a manicure. and i tanned. and i did laundry. and got a nice long shower. and im gonna finish cleaning my room. and finish cleaning my truck out hopefully. may not sound like fun indulgences to u lol...but its stuff that ive wanted to get done for a while now...so im gonna do it.
man this is a long entry lol.
everwoods on tonight!!! yay!
i hate that boys can masturbate lol.
no homework this weekend. that was really awesome too.
im still confused about stuff. but i havent let it get to me really. and thats nice.
i think in the dark of the night when its quiet and lonely is when i really have nothing else to do but think about it all. i have had someone to talk to about alot of it though and that helps. but sitting alone w. my thoughts still really isnt a good thing for me lol. but u knew that already.
i hate confusion.
ok. i think this very long entry has finally come to a close. hope uve enjoyed ur day off! :-)
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