misunderstood
Thursday, Mar. 11, 2004, 5:51 pm
im not really in the mood to update.
but i dont have anything better to do.
that jackass said something again to me today. and i know i shouldnt care. but it bothers me. cause it was so...mean. i want to be mad about it...or better yet not care @ all. but i cant be mad...it hurt my feelings too much. i mean...i know the reality of things but that doesnt mean people hafta be rude about it. i know what ur thinking...just keep ur opinion to urself.
but i guess he doesnt really care.
we went to the auditorium today to talk about registering for classes. im pretty sure about everything im taking. i havent decided if im staying in choir though. people are dropping it...and the choirs gonna be even bigger next year. and i dont want to be in it if its not gonna be fun...if its gonna suck like this year. i dont have as many good friends in choir this year like i did last year...and next year there will be even less. im not gonna wanna go 2 new york if theres noone i really wanna even room w/...and y be in choir and not go on the trip? ah. i dunno.
today was a good day. it really was. until...yet again...the afternoon rolled around. no...no unexpected calls from work...but there was choir practice and that guy was a jackass and then my sister was a brat.
i think the reason i get so pissed off @ the way she acts and treats me is cause it hurts. i do so much for her...and im never appreciated...never acknowledged. shes just a bitch about everything. and i guess its just me. she doesnt treat me mama like that...well not as severely. its as if no matter what i do for her...no matter how i am to her...i dont mean anything. im just an inconvenience that uses up her computer time. unless she needs a ride somewhere...and then im a taxi. or im an extra closet to look through. but im not an actual person that means anything.
ive gotten that feeling a lot lately.
i dont have too much hope for a 'fun' spring break. im gonna be @ my dads. yeah...im going back. for 24/7 dad all the time. no school to escape to.
its sad that school can actually be an escape.
hopefully ill go 2 bed early tonight. and sleep for a really long time. and wake up...with everything ok.
singing test in choir tomorrow. i hate singing tests. absolutely detest them.
and then the protest thing in history. that wont be bad. easy 100 test grade.
i want to know that everything is gonna be ok. thats its all gonna go away.
i want that reassurance.
ok im gonna go...i dunno do something else. hope u had a great day. i might update later.
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