good mattie
Wednesday, Jun. 23, 2004, 10:50 pm
:-)
so far she's been a really good puppy. good little mattie. she's actually fairly smart too.
there are some pictures of her here...
http://members19.clubphoto.com/sarah797851/guest-1.phtml
...but they really don't do her justice. she's such pretty dog.
you can ask whitney!!! lol. she came by today!!! that was nice. mainly to see mattie...but we got some good conversation in as well. woo hoo! :-) it was nice seeing her...lol it was nice having so outside contact.
i got the job at chili's!!! i'm very excited. i'm so glad to finally have something real to do with my time during the day...and i'm very glad i'm going to be making money again!
only a few more days til galveston. woo hoo.
if anyone wants to come see the puppy (or me!!! :-/) do not hesitate to just come on by lol. we've gotta stay in the house pretty much just cause until she's completely trained she can't be out of the lil kennel unattended. so it's a lot of sitting @ home. i'm not complaining! mind you...lol it just gets lonely sometimes :-)
i want to go visit kristin landua to see if she's ok and what not...but i don't know if she'd even want me to come visit. i hate that feeling. i haven't heard from anyone since we went to austin and college station...i'm always just an outsider. and i want to go see her...but i figure since she never called when she said and what not...she probably just doesn't want to see me either. :-/. i dunno. maybe i'm making something out of nothing.
i try. i mean...i don't really call anyone cause i never have anything to do...so i can't invite them anywhere. but even when i talk to people online it's like they'd just rather not. and then when i'm sitting home at night i here about what other people are doing/did...and i just...ah that feeling of rejection washes over me all over again. i don't know what i do to annoy people or piss them off or make them not want me around...but i wish someone would tell me...cause it seems like there must be something about me that they're not liking.
i don't know. i really don't get it. i don't not call people because i don't want to do anything with them...i don't call because i feel dumb because i've really got nothing to say...no reason for calling. and because they're not calling me...i feel like i'm just being a nuisance anyways.
ah. ok i'll stop talking about it. just something that crosses my mind from time to time while i'm sitting at home...alone.
i hate rejection.
lol but besides that lil inner turmoil...things are relatively good...great even. i hate that not everything can be good at once...there's always gotta be one aspect of life not going well...lol for some dumb reason it can never be totally...swell.
but yeah...mostly happiness all the way around. i'm not complaining...just an inner debate or...contemplation.
:-)
orientation for chili's on saturday. woot. lol jessa said that now i'm an official 'chilihead.' how nice!!!
ok. i hope you had a really great wednesday. i'm going to go get some sleep because i've got the early shift in the morning for mattie. rise and shine @ 6 am.
sleep well everyone :-)
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