cowboy up
August 07, 2002, 6:28 pm
howdy folks.
so yeah. i dunno if jon likes me or not. i dunno if he even has the slightest interest in me. its all very blurry rite now.
i wus explainin the whole situation 2 missy and kristin last nite. like how he flirts w/ me and hell come up and put his arms around me...but he hasnt made a move yet and sumtimes hes real reserved and like wont flirt w/ me. its weird. so yeah i wus talkin bout it last nite w/ missy and kristin...and then missy dropped the bomb..."well mayb he just dont like u". yeah lol that kinda hurt...and kristin had that look like i cant believe she said that. lol but yeah i didnt freak out or nething...but it did give me sum perspective. he mite not like me. agh. o well my loss rite?. yeah i think so. but yeah so i mean it kinda broke the mocking mood of the whole convo. lol but we went on and we were like well mayb he aint makin a move cuz brandons his friend and brandon likes u...which is totally understandable. so yeah. i no missy had no intention of being rude...but she wus just stating the truth. and thats wut i like about her. she dont sugar coat it...she just tells it like it is. but yeah i hope it aint that way...lol i hope he dus like me. it would b nice. cuz hes a really kool guy. lol a cowboy. totally awesum. haha yesterday he wus decked out in an aggies cap...wranglers...cowboy boots...and a big cowboy belt. and it wusnt like 2 much...and he didnt look like a "kicker poser"...it looked rite...and it looked go0o0od. lol but yeah.
he aint goin 2 the movie 2nite w/ all of us if we go...cuz like he rear ended sum lady...and he barely scratched her car...but she flipped out. so yeah his folks wont let him go out 2nite. i feel a pattern emerging...and i dont like it. i wish i had more answers...and i wish i wasnt so scared 2 ask the questions. i guess im just afraid of gettin an answer i dont want. i feel like this 1s slowly goin down the drain...like matt did and like chad did and like jared did...but yeah i guess ill just have 2 wait and c how long this 1 takes 2 get flushed.
jerry jeff walker this friday. woo hoo. i dunno who were goin w. yet. mabe allen and william. mayb mai lee and jon and adam...who knows. but itll b fun.
saturday nite i think im goin 2 sum party that blake (stuart's, kerris boyfriend, friend) is throwin. thatll b kool...just as long as like kerri dont leave me 2 go off w. stuart or sumthin. la de da...but she wouldnt do that.
me, missy, and kristin are all havin lunch w/ katie mcdonald 2morrow. thatll b kool. im excited 2 c her...c how shes changed...and c wut shes been up 2. she wus always a fun person.
agh. 1 week til skool. thats not good.
i slept tile like 2:50 2day...and i went 2 bed @ 2. that like 13 hours of sleep. ive been really sleep deprived...1st i woke up early 4 2 days 4 work...then i woke up early 4 church...and then monday and tuesday i woke up early 4 choir. and i went 2 bed @ like 12-1 everynite. so yeah i wus tired. but i got caught up 2day so its kool.
so yeah i went w. kristin 2 her dads last nite 4 dinner. it wus fun. aw...tylers so cute!...hehe yeah we were in the car goin 2 her dads...and kristin was talkin 2 him bout missing people and she wus like "did u miss ur krissy?" and tyler goes "yeah...and i missed my sarah too." i wus like aaaawwww!!! i feel so special. lol yes i have affection of a 2 1/2 yr old...lol but yeah it made me feel good. its the lil things that count. so we watched the mole 2 season finale...agh! dorothy wasnt the mole!!! and we so thought it wus!!! lol. but yeah. and we had spaghetti. haha the funniest part of the nite wus when tyler accidentally ran in2 a wall...and then bounced back in2 a cabinet. lol aw it wus kinda sad cuz he wus hurt and crying...lol but it wus one of those things where u couldnt help but laugh. lol ah it wus great.
sumbody please explain this jon thing 2 me!!! agh its infuriating!!! lol bye.
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