inprisoned
Sunday, Feb. 23, 2003, 5:24 pm
boredom strikes again. so stupidly i picked up the phone and called kris, then kerri who wasnt home, and then jon. yeah the latter...he doesnt wanna b talkin 2 me @ all. i can tell. and i dunno wut im sposed 2 say 2 keep this conversation going. and now its ended. its dumb. and i hate it. not being able 2 talk 2 him. its so...stupid. 2 think that we used 2 b so close...and now we cant even carry on a conversation. blah.
yeah im still grounded...but nobodys home so i figured that id sneak in some time online and update.
i went 2 chilis last nite w/ mi familia and i saw emily, jessa, kristina, sara, and lauryn there. that was nice...2 see ppl outside of my family on the weekend. lol like they said...im in prison. and it bites.
were goin 2 florida for spring break!! yay. i dont really know wut 2 expect with the whole tony thing. i really dont. but i expect that ill be meeting the infamous leah. ill try and contain my excitement. i dont really know how im goin 2 avoid that. but i dunno...wish me luck. itll b fun though none the less. we might go 2 universal studios one day...and itll just b nice 2 get away. i get outta skool early that friday b4 spring break...and we come back wednesday the 12th. ill try and update while im there. so look forward to that. the whole tony thing will probably become a huge fiasco...but i wont look 2 far in2 that right now. takes too much mental strength.
i want a guy!!! ah i do i do. i want a guy 2 want me. i want 2 b w/ a guy. yeah and all the great and horrible things that come with it. im sick of being alone. it sux. and i know exactly wut i want...but its just like I I <--that much out of reach. sux doesnt it. o well. someday my time will come. and itll b for good.
im writing a book...yes a book. well...kind of a book. newho...its my biggest fantasy coming true. and i love it. its everything ive dreamed of happening rolling in2 one. i dunno if im gonna share it publicly or not. mayb with just a few ppl...a few ppl who really get me. lol yeah and there arent many ppl like that.
im bored with doing this right now. sorry 2 any1 who was actually interested in what i was saying. im gonna go hit the books (homework) now. ill ttyl. I LOVE YOU!!!
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