good convos
Sunday, Jan. 04, 2004, 1:41 am
tonight was a night of fantastic conversations.
1st dinner with my mama which of course i couldnt save.
but then some amazing ones online.
here are two...
jeremy daughtry and then whitney. also wish that i had my convo with kevin to put in here and save...but sadly i didnt.
u are not expected to read them or be interested in them by any means.
theyr just for me to have a safe holding place for them.
thats all.
YUH421: sarah, let me tell you someting okay?
texas cherry red: go for it
YUH421: you are one of my best girl friends and this is because of how you treated me since always, i know we dont talk much, but you are a GREAT person, you care, you care alot about how people feel. Remember when i asked you to prom back in march lol? well i had a crush no bull shit but ya know, you said you had a date and i understood that, you are a good person to like, a TRUSTWORHTY person to like, your good for what ever guy likes you and no matter what happesn to you, you will be crowned some guys princess in the end and your prince charming will make you happy for the rest of your life, and from my personal encounters with you, that is what you deserve
texas cherry red: you really just made my day
texas cherry red: thank u so much jeremy
texas cherry red: please dont ever forget that i appreciate everything u ever did for me
texas cherry red: and our friendship stands strong in my mind always
YUH421: but ya know, i heard bad bad bad things about me after kirstina that she had said and ya know, i dont care, i know she knows deep down who I am.. but you, like i dunno
YUH421: you were always there for me and you are one of the lading causes as to why i got through it
YUH421: any guy would be lucky to have you, even myself
texas cherry red: cause ur a good guy jeremy
texas cherry red: u didnt deserve to be unhappy like tahat
texas cherry red: that*
YUH421: well sarah between me and you, i went to World Geography everyday hoping you were there, you brought a smile to my life no matter what
texas cherry red: thank you jeremy
YUH421: after kristina and i was down like SHIIIIIIIIIIIIT, you were the only bright spot in my day, even my CLOSETS friends would say "get over that bitch already"
texas cherry red: u and that class helped make my day everyday
YUH421: and ya know, you wre the only person to take me aside and say "jeremy, WTF is wrong"
YUH421: you could tell like none other
YUH421: and i still love you for that
texas cherry red: im glad i could help
texas cherry red: i never liked to see you upet
texas cherry red: upset*
YUH421: eh, lol, its apart of life
YUH421: but she is the first to leave and impact like that
YUH421: but YOU are the first to actually care
texas cherry red: we were friends
texas cherry red: and thats what friends do
YUH421: well, again, between me and you, you meant more than that, i dont know exactly what, but it was something deep
YUH421: people dont care about people like you did me i dunno
YUH421: but it made me happy deep down
YUH421: brightened my day
texas cherry red: im glad
texas cherry red: thats all i ever wanted to do
texas cherry red: cause thats how i care about my friends
YUH421: but you were always there
YUH421: i remember when i FIRST got your number
YUH421: lol "call me after school"
YUH421: BOOM answered, that night, we had a drink together and talked
YUH421: i grew to you hardcore
texas cherry red: lol
texas cherry red: ur so good @ bringin a smile to my face
YUH421: lol babe like i said, i didnt ask you to prom in march for no reason
YUH421: you wre the best thing happenin for me then
YUH421: i just caught up to feelin good too late
texas cherry red: everything happens for a reason
texas cherry red: how are things now?
YUH421: eh, im alone lets put it like that
YUH421: i mean heather IS my gf, but, she isnt "the one" and i know this
texas cherry red: yeah
YUH421: which is fine, but, sometimes i feel like i need that person
texas cherry red: well ur still young
texas cherry red: u got time
texas cherry red: everyone does
texas cherry red: its natural to want 'that person'
texas cherry red: but all the people before that person
texas cherry red: help define who 'that person' for you really is
YUH421: well sarah, you will make a guys dreams come true one day, that is for sure,. you are one of a kind and deeeep down i still believe this in you
texas cherry red: thank u jeremy
texas cherry red: and u 2 will find urs some day
texas cherry red: and shell have been waiting all of her life just for u
YUH421: never met someone like you, and honestly, dont think ill meet another, thus defining "one of a kind"
texas cherry red: thanks
texas cherry red: i like not being like anyone else
texas cherry red: makes it easier to be me
YUH421: but i hate to see you hurt, sara doesnt get hurt
texas cherry red: sarah gets hurt
YUH421: ya know, one day you and i should have lunch or dinner or something so that we can catch up and talk, i miss you as that person i could always turn too
texas cherry red: we should
YUH421: sarah doesnt deserve pain in jeremy's mind
texas cherry red: lol thanks
YUH421: i guess i say that because of what you did for me
YUH421: like AHHH, you have no idea sarah
YUH421: sometmies i would cry at night and then i would think of you and i would sile and laugh, there is just something about you that always helped me throught that BS
texas cherry red: im glad i could help
texas cherry red: its nice to know that my efforts are appreciated every now and then
YUH421: every now and then or always? i take choice "b"
texas cherry red: i dont want to hear it all the time
texas cherry red: plus its not like im constantly making an impact
texas cherry red: but every now and again
texas cherry red: its nice to know that other ppl notice ur efforts
YUH421: i didnt notice them
texas cherry red: i mean i dont do it for anyone else but me
YUH421: i cherish them, still
texas cherry red: but its still nice to know ur not dismissed
texas cherry red: im glad
YUH421: hey i meant to ask you
texas cherry red: shoot
YUH421: you were with your mom the other day, did you see a guy waving at you in a white Chevy Blzer getting on 290?
texas cherry red: lol o yeah
texas cherry red: i was with my mama and grandma
texas cherry red: and sister
texas cherry red: and we were so confused
YUH421: that was sooooooooo me
texas cherry red: lol aw
texas cherry red: yeah we had no idea
texas cherry red: cause i couldnt even see the faces of the ppl in the car
YUH421: i was flippin out because my friend nick realized it was you and i was like OMG OMG OMG OMG and then they were like "fag chill out do you even know her?"
texas cherry red: lol
texas cherry red: ok well i have church in the morning
texas cherry red: so im gonna go to bed
YUH421: alrighty
texas cherry red: ill ttyl
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WHITisANotreDAME: sarah..im thinking about u and praying for u and i hope everything works out..it will it always does
texas cherry red: thank u so much honey
texas cherry red: that means alot
texas cherry red: its so hard cause im so confused
texas cherry red: but really
texas cherry red: thank u
WHITisANotreDAME: i understand
WHITisANotreDAME: i mean i know if u dont want to talk about it so that is why i don wanna push it
WHITisANotreDAME: but just know if you need it
WHITisANotreDAME: im here
texas cherry red: i appreciate it
texas cherry red: thanks
texas cherry red: im not really in the mood to talk about it right now
texas cherry red: plus im headin to bed
texas cherry red: but thank u
texas cherry red: it really does mean alot to me
WHITisANotreDAME: im glad
WHITisANotreDAME: itll all workout it always doesa
texas cherry red: i hope so
WHITisANotreDAME: it will
WHITisANotreDAME: keep the faith
WHITisANotreDAME: whatever happens
WHITisANotreDAME: itll work out
texas cherry red: thank u honey
WHITisANotreDAME: you will love again...no matter what..whether it be jeremy or another love
WHITisANotreDAME: you will love again
texas cherry red: i love you
texas cherry red: i dont really know what else to say
texas cherry red: but thank u
WHITisANotreDAME: same to you
texas cherry red: cause really...thank u
texas cherry red: lol
WHITisANotreDAME: no problem
WHITisANotreDAME: have a good night
texas cherry red: u too honey
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OH YEAH! also shaheenas entry in my guestbook...that was also really great.
from shaheena: [@] [www]
Sarah, I don't think you've ever really liked me, but every once in awhile, I read your journal, since a long time ago, Jessa had a link to yours on hers..and I was clicking around. I've always seen that you're more mature than most your age, and you always have something insightful to say. I'm sorry that you're having a tough time right now. :( I hope things work out for you. No matter how they work out, you should know that they'll end up the way they're supposed to be. Good luck and stay strong. And if you ever need someone to talk to, don't hesitate to come to me--I'm always willing to be an ear. Chin up. :)
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